All My Life

Sorry

2009-06-26T08:31:00.001-07:00

hello people , sorry for the improper blog skin . its in progress . will be updating soon . thanks . under construction .

Himself & Myself

2009-06-24T09:54:00.000-07:00

timechecked ; 1254 am

hello peeps . i still have no mood to blog about the away-days post . later- later luh okey ? ill makesure . hrm . anywaay , this days .. ive so many bad feelings . feeling guilty ader , selfish ade and macam macam luh . cos i know one particular day , ill ruin some one's future . im so afraid it will haapeen . doa doa takkn luh . as you can see theres just tooo many things up my mind . my mind is all fickled and twisted . sound pathetic much ? yea .

but i want your view , readers . what do u think you should do if u have chnged someone to a bad person . bad such in , attitude , his ways , responsibilities , duties , and etc which there is in a daily life . i did , i did made a person turn bad . not very bad bad but bad . such that he didnt carry out his daily duties which every human being living on earth wld do . call me an influence or what so ever , i dun even farking care ! cos i believe im not that sortta person . if i am , i wld have alrd influence all of my friends to do bad stuffs wimme with unhealthy ways and agree for me to be an AH LIAN in the group . well , i donnoe if its my fault . but it should be my fault cos im always with him and im the one taking care of every of his needs . but to this , it had made me feel so guilty . what should i do ? ever since , his been pampering me too much with gifts , care and concern all this while & love especially .. and have been treating me right and and knowing me too well . but is it even a healthy relationship ? but what made him turn out to be this way ? what do you think i should do and at the same time , not hurt him or make him feel offended ?

Be straight forward and tell him ?

Leave his life alone without even saying anythg and to think that he will change to his old ways / self ?

Tell him First and then Leave his life alone ?

Irritate him till he hates me so that he will leave my life alone ? (-.-)

Or just let it be as if nthg happend ?

ps ; im sooooo darn CONFUSED MYSELF . Its just toooo obvious that you know who the hell the person is right ? anyone who has suggestion please feel free to write anythg in the tagboard or PM me at msn easier . i will listen to all suggestions unless if u are a bloody hate tagger then feel free to go to your top right hand corner of this page that cleearly marks an X . thank you ! mwah ! ((;

Backk & Quiz

2009-06-23T05:22:00.000-07:00

hello Earthlings !! im baaaaaaaackk !! haiyaaaak !! haha . well , not much today . dun feel like blogging just yet because reason being im too tired and i just came back from dealing some intensive problematic situations at home which is sooooo "mind-blowing" and fun to watch ! also known as , FREESHOW ! sarcastic muchh ? hrm , i apologise . hey yeaaa , im trying my best to relax but theres just too much wrestling match gg on at home . picture it like a zoo . im sooo tensed up . i apologise again . hee ((; . well , for today , let me rest my mind and myself first both emotionally and physically . but hey , this post is not to bore all of u . i gotta quiz taken from NADHIRAH'S blog ! hehe . thank u muchh love (: haiyakk ! dushhh !!

All of the 9 people must do this quiz, unless he/she doesnt have a blog. (or rather, had already did it.) I've editted some, 14 is too much. Lessened of the number of people. So yeah. Enjoy~ :D

1. Khairul Anwar
2. Dina
3. Arnia
4. Sya
5. Alina
6. Nadhirah
7. Kyn
8. Akasha
9. Liana Arina

How do you get to meet 7?
Since Secondary 3 :D
What would you do if you and 1 never meet?
I make sure I meet him .
What would you do if 1 and 5 date?
Laugh my asss off ! Cos they will definitely kill each other ! haha
Have you ever seen 3 cry?
Yeaaaaa .
Would 4 and 5 be a good couple?
They are both girls ! Both straight and are Friends ! ((;
Do you think 9 is attractive?
ooooooooo ! yeaaaa ! ((;
What's 2 favourite colour?
Pink !! Kan ???? hee !
When was the last time you talk to 5?
A few hours ago .
What language does 8 speak?
Malay and English.
Who is 1 going out with?
Aidilin Fitri xD
Which grade is 2 in?
Secondary 4.
Would you ever date with 8?
8 ??? Lol ! im attached babe . ((:
Where does 9 live?
In Tampines .
What's the best thing about 8?
He's a Funny Person !! && GoodFriend .
What would you want to tell 1 now?
I love you , I really Do ! hee (;
What's the best thing about 2?
She's Everyones BestFriend !
Have you ever kissed 5?
Nope ! We're Both Girls Okey !
What's the best memory you have with 7?
Laughing Our Ass Off ! With her funny Laughter , ill laugh after her eventho its abt Nothg ! :DD
How is 4 and 8 different?
4 is my bestfriend and 8 is my goodfriend.
Is 6 pretty?
Cantik-Cantik Selalu !!!!! hee .
How do you meet 9?
Through Primary School .
Is 1 your best friend?
Definitely ! More than that . ((;
Do you hate 8?
What for ? he's my goodfriend y'know !
Have you seen 4 on the last month?
Uh-huh .
When was the last time you said to 3?
Afew minutes ago . About School Holiday Extensions :(
Have you been to 5 house?
Yeah, last time.
When's the next time you are going to see 6?
Would definitely see her when school re-opens (;
Are you close to 8?
Not That close . A good Friend .
Have you ever been to a movie with 4 before?
Yup , Ayat ayat cinta . haha .
Have you ever gotten into trouble with 8?
Nope
Would you give 2 a hug?
Definitely.
When have you lied to 3?
When i Dont want her to know abt smthg :(
Is 1 good with socializing?
Uh-huh ! He is . ((;
Do you know secrets about 9?
Long time ago . But i will never forget her "relationship" with CATS ! haha
Describe the relationship between 1 and 8?
Good Friends , i guess ?
Best thing about your friendship with 9?
We shared Too Many Secrets . ((;
What's the worse thing about 6?
Not worse Luh but her Lame Jokes that will never fail to make me Laugh !
Have you ever had a crush on 8?
Old Story okey !
Does 1 have a boyfriend/girlfriend?
Yezzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz !
Have you ever wanted to punch 1's face?
oooo yeaaa !! He's Soooo Naughty ! I feel like Locking him inside a box ! haha . opps ! :O
Has 2 met your mother?
YESS .
How do you get to meet 3?
Same class in Sec 3 till now . ((;
Did you ever physically hurt 3?
No . -.- im not VIOLENT !
Do you live close to 7?
Quite far . but Still Tampines .
What's 8 favourite food?
Not sure, really.
What kind of cars does 1 have?
Toy Cars , Paper Cars , Baby Cars . What Sortta Car U want ? hee !
Have you ever travelled anywhere with 9 before?
Does Travelling To School Count ?
If you give 9 $100, what would she spend it on?
IDK . Shes Spending it . Not Me . (:

YAAAAAAAK DUSHHH ! IM DONE :DDD
Ps ; Didnt i mention tht there won't be any SCHOOL HOLIDAY EXTENSION ? TSK ! HECK ! ((:

AWAY

2009-06-17T07:33:00.000-07:00

OKEY SWTHRTS . ILL NOT BE BLOGGING FOR A FEW DAYS , ONLY , OKEY ? THERES SOME STUFFS I NEED TO DO . DUN WORRY SWTHRTS , ILL BE BACK . MWAHH ! ((;

Dun't Judge a Person By What U See Only .

2009-06-15T09:24:00.000-07:00

timechecked ; 12:25 am .

and im not sleeping . plus plus , my headache got worse ever since this afternoon . saket tawu kpale aku ! ishh ! its all due to da late sleeping hours . but what to do ? if i cant sleep , then i cnt sleep ! hehe . anw , today is a awfully pathetic day . wasnt feeling well , till now .. for today only attented majlis . well , kakak went to convert to muslim . i mean my step sis . she was a cristian then . but now a newly convert MUSLIM ! just like a sinless newborn baby ! hehe . CONGRATS SISTER ! she's still learning agama . and shes catching up to me . cepat ehkk . and guess what ? her new malay name nice taw . mcm celebrity ! hehe . Name dia , Nur Hanisah Ain ! lawaaaaaaaaaaaaa kan ! jelous ! tp im still proud of my name . hee ! xD . and my Dad just told me the reason behind the meaning of my name . JUST U KNOW . all ths while i didnt know . and also , i didnt know tht i was born a day after HARI RAYA AIDIL FITRI . hehe . weird , but true . hehe .

anw , ive got nthg else to say . cos my day was soooooooooooooooo borinnnnnnnngg ! Pathetic muchh ? yeaaa . lastly , i wanna talk abt an AWESOME FRIEND who ive been talking to through this sleepless nights . A friend by the name of MUHD AIZAT BIN ABDULLAH . hehe . his the one with the picture below . his a cool Friend . cool cool friend . best taw kalo nk borak2 nan dier ! dier nan IZHHAR dua2 kaki gerek ! haha . but , he kan , who really really likes to disturb me so much . but , his soft nature really makes people feel so touched . REALLY ! NO KIDDING ! kene kenal org dier btol2 . well , i wldnt wanna elaborate abt this GUYFRIEND of mine . u wanna know then go find out abt him yourself . talk to him yea ? His nice , and a very very good listener . i only knew his true colours Yesterday . u imagine ??? only yesterday taw . padahal2 ehk , kenal da brape tahun dahh . hehe . cannot imagine how many topics we talked abt in msn yesterday . hehe . well friend , looking forward to talk to u more often luh . and hope u think abt what i told u yesterday . hehe . Stay confident yea ??/ ((; and , dun always kacau me luh ! u uh ! issshhh . k , thats all . hehe .

aizaat gerek luuuuuuuuuuuuuuuhhh ! (((((((((((;
and thanks for the concern , friend !
and finnally , i miss baby :(

I Can't Feel Your Presence Around Me

2009-06-14T08:42:00.000-07:00

timechecked : 11: 42 pm

am no such mood since last two days . have been sleeping so late staying up till 3 to 4 am in da morning . have been rotting at home the whole day while waiting for baby for suchha freaking whole day . padahal padahal ehk .. kate je alek pagy on Sunday . tkp luh . well , what i did last two days ehk ? hrmm , yest went out with GIRLFRIENDS . we're suppose to accompany ARNIA BABE to sg auditions . but it was too damn early . slept like a log sei . on tht day , arnia babe gave me a wake up call at around 820 am .

arn ; eyy , alyn ? kau bru bgon ke ?

me ; uh2 , eyy asl sei kau call pgy2 buta sei ? ( dgn suare tk snonoh cos penat sekali ! )

arn ; oi . kau nak ikot tk gy audition ? kau bru bgon lgy .

me ; alamak , okey2 ! aku siap2 . kau try call kyn nan dina sume .

( i was actualli talking to her with my eyes still closed ! haha )

after i hang up the phone , went to my room , then guess what i did ? THE BED IS CALLING ME ! some " gravity " force pulled me back to my bed and i slept back . haha . so called nak siap2 luh nak kater kan .. haha . then got another wake up call at 1030 am . dina plak .. haha . naseb baek someone came to the rescue from my lalaland . haha . kalo tk .. haiyooooo ! haha . then on that day , after arnia's audition , planned to meet arnia at tampines jer . cos my so called getting ready took from 1030 till 230 pm ! hahah !! long or what ! i can still watch tv and sit there like a log . haha . see how lazy i am when im in no such mood ? hehe .

then today , didnt have any plan to go out . sleeeeeept all the waaaay til 2pm . its so not me . haha . gg bowling with family was so last minute and we went out at 545 , i think . eat eat eat , then go play bowl till 11 pm . and hey !!! i got 3 straight strikes i tell ya ! hahah ! happy or what ! hehe . next week on Father's Day gg BBQ AND CAMPING ! im soooooo not gg to sleeep ! hehe . YAYNEEEESS !!! well , thats all for today . just tired .. and missing baby so much .
where are you ?

- i can't feel your presence even if i imagine your here with me . -

Come Faster

2009-06-13T06:43:00.000-07:00

my mind for tonight is already blank . i cldnt remember what i wanted to blog . hehe . well , i just browsed through the picture folders and some things came bck fresh in my mind . anw , let the picture do the talking aite . ive got nothing to say except waiting for bby's arrival .. haixx . tmr please come by faster ! ((;

my sister , the one in pink . she took a short vacation in singapore and sadly , i had to be her tourguide .

old picture with ferina . the truth is , i realli3 miss my CURLY HAIR !! ;(((((( miss misss !

newborn baby niece ! Mikhaila ! am waiting for her to come to sg ! (((:

my niece , Phoebe !! i miss herrrrr !!! LOOOOVEE ! andand ! she knows how to pose for a picture ! haha .

AND , I MISS BABY ;(

ps; Ouh ... ! yur suchha FLIRT ! EE . disgusted . really am .

Khairul Anwar

2009-06-12T23:09:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 13TH MONTHS ANNIVERSARY , DEAREST . ((;

I Miss His Smile

2009-06-12T11:01:00.000-07:00

timechecked ; 2:01 am .

aalaamak , i cannot sleep luh . mcm mane ni . haiix . told boyf im sleeping soon , but here im still blogging . nnti ade je pakcik hyrul bynk songeh ! hehe . well ? how cld i even sleep if his going to melacca tmr for two days ? ;(((((( i cried u know when i walked home alone . i was as if i cld sense the empty saddest feeling is comming .. cos i cld spent spend my night talking to him on the phone anymore , i cld spend my wonderful spare time talking abt random stuffs and laughing my ass off talking abt nonsense anymore . no one cld make me smile and laugh like he does . ;((((((( no more disturbing boyf when he pronounced smthg wrongly . sedih kaaaaaan ? haiix . why must u go .. ? kk , tkp , just for two days , i hope . must think positive ! (; dearest hours , please pass by faster ((;

anw , earlier kyn asked me if i know how to make cupcakes . well hell yeah ! i love them ! hehe . i cld remember the times where i will always cook and bake stuffs when im extremely stressed out , no matter how tired i was . hehe . but now i stopped , cos my oven spoilt due to too much baking . hehe . sedih tk ? ((; but now , i wanna try make 'CHOCOLATE CHIP FUDGE BROWNIES' !! yummmmmmyumm !!!! looking at those pictures make me hungry at this hour ! hehe .Chocolate Coated brownie

Chewy Chocolate Brownie

Chocolate Chip Fudge Brownie

Caramel Fudge Brownie

ps; 49 days to go ..

Life's like a bar of chocolate

2009-06-12T08:11:00.001-07:00

im at my wits end . ive got no purpose in life . ive got to end everythg as soon as possible . im making sacrifices .. i hope everyone understands . im giving myself time till 1st August . after that day , everythg will end , slowly .. but before that , ill do everything i can and spend every second i can to make anyone i could hold on to happy .. and the seconds , minutes , hours , days and months starts , NOW ..

the countdown starts ; 50 days to go ..

after ths , it won't be the same anymore .

2009-06-09T08:42:00.000-07:00

i will blog about today tmr . im having problems with my family . well , not me , its my parents . im in no such mood to talk mucch . will still post for the last two days . for now , evrythg have been falling apart , especially family ...

m ; ni sape yang msg ??!

d ; mane ade ?

m ; jgn nak tipu ! aku nak kau angkat baju2 kau and klua dr umah ni ! aku dah taknk tgok muke kau lgy ! dah dua kali kau buat aku dgn anak2 kau mcm ni !! PERRRGI !

after that i cried looked as he walked out the door . i went to my room , slammed the door , shouted and break all the things in my room . including mirrors . thanks allot the both of u , u ruined my entire life , broke my heart into pieces like u broke the family up . i hate the both of you !

* to be continued *

Today . Tmr .

2009-06-07T08:39:00.000-07:00

well , basically today , just went swimming . nothg much . will elaborate about today tmr . for now , im just too tired to type . but just taking pictures using lappy webcam . hehe . dun't u realise tht u find it funny when u take pics using the webcam ? i do , i find it weird , especially when i make funny faces . hehe ! I FIND ALL OF THEM FUNNY !! but if u bitches dun like then dun have to look . thank you ! ((;

Nurainni Bte Mohd. Kamal

2009-06-06T20:49:00.000-07:00

timechecked ; 11.47am .
and i havent even have any plans to go out ! how booooooooring is that ? semua org nak klua abeh aku sorng je mcm kucing bising kat umah . haixx .. currently , having TOOOO many fight with boyf . maklum luh , blom btol2 faham antara satu same laen kan . never think its easy to have a relationship . esp if u think of gg long term . for me , ive been wid boyf for alrd a year , and there just TOO many ups and downs happening . it takes patience , TRUST , respect and anger management . JELOUSY is the enemy of all relationships . but its just a beautiful feeling and experience where u share stuffs with each other . different luh if both of u dun understand and dun have anythg in common at all . then alot of misunderstandings wld occur . well , shld not elaborate on ths tht much . guess all of u get an idea how its like .

moving on , see the picture above ? its my dearest sister and her fiance . only know his nickname i guess , was it wan ? i think so . hehe . both of them are GETTING MARRIED SOON . in JUNE 2010 . woow .. SOOON . i can smell nasi minyak ohh so near ! haha . well , goodluck and all the best with yur future endeavours , sister ! marriage is alrd far away different from relationship . u have to really commit and theres no backing out . well , always be patient alright sister ? anw , i shldnt give u advices , cos yur older than me and u shld know how its like . i donnoe about marriage at all ! hehe ! thats all then . i love u , kak Nurainni bte Mohd Kamal ! & Abg Wan . ((;

6th June .

2009-06-05T14:34:00.000-07:00

before dressing up for jemputan .

Read my Lips .

timechecked: 658pm .
i just got back from wedding ceremony . standard luh . weekends always full of malay weddings . then just now just attended my grandma's cousin punya anak punya anak nye wedding . tiring . i didnt know that we were that close , so my family and i had to attend it for 4 hrs . how long is that ? & the place is so damn hot u know !! not enuf fans i think . hehe . for today , i wont blog much cos ive done much blogging yest . and readers , i would like to apologise for dirtying the previous post with alot of vulgur and harsh words . well , tht girl deserve it anyway . SAPE MKN CILI ORG LAEN TERASE PEDAS ! ohh my , i forgot what i wanted to blog . sheeeeeeeessshhh !!

♥June Birthday Babies ♥

Dina

Alina

Acaaaap

Nasrun

Ibu ♥ ( boyf mummy )

And many more , will update if i remember any (:
ps ; SW , say whatever you wanna say . nobody even blaaardy care . respect other ppl's privacy like how u want ppl to respect yours !

Second post

2009-06-05T10:41:00.000-07:00

timechecked ; 1.41 am .

okey , i just cldnt sleep . finished my blog then nak tdo , tk tdo tdo . terpakse luh entertain my own self since boyf slept alrd . im so bored okey . other then waste my time layaning some shit , let's talk about two stuufs that has been bothering me since last night . well , as u can see im angry . yes i am . its obvious bcos of the harsh words . but sorrey , cnt help but vent it . school is still open . it will be dragged till 10th June ! stupid remedials , lousy lessons , late coming teachers . what the POINT of coming to remedials like that ? might as well lepak at home sleep or go out sei . alamak . so lazy to wake up in the morning to attend 5 hrs of sch . GOOOSHHH ! talk about bragging .and ill find work for weekends !! Yaynessss !!! ((;

secondly , lets talk about a particular person . lets just call her SW . this shitting person owns a blog . well , as u can see some PATHETIC nyonyas like her with a terrible terrible side of her showing off , likes to talk about other people . shes someone in JYSS and doesnt know who shes messing with . u know what idiot ? yur just pathetic u know , u just have nothing better to do but write about other people's life ? how cruel is that man ? what wld others think of u . talk about free world ! of cors uh , u wld say stuffs like , " this is a free world , we do what we like. " " this is my blog , my problem uh !" "sape mkn cili org laen terase pedas " OR whatever shits luh kan . but u nvr think that it hints to alot of ppl . whats the big deal with couples in school ? macam kau tak pernah bercinta gitu . bedek sia kalo tk pernah ! MUKE KAU TK PERNAH ?? gy terjun bunuh diri sudah bodow ! psl uh if tht couple want to do anythg or say anythg walaupon kat DUSTBIN ker ape ! whats the big FCUK u fussing about ? if your tired of seeing tht fcuking couple sending each other everywhere then let someone punch your eye hard so u wont have to look at them . AND I WOULD LOOOOOVE TO BE THE FIRST EVER PERSON TO BLOODY PUNCH U AND SEE YUR PATHETIC DISFIGURED FACE ! even some of us read whatever u posted say " i dun like her . shes such a kpo nyonya . mcm tkd life . GO AND GET A LIFE LUH FCUKER ! smpai da besar ke anak cucu maseh nak kpo psl hidup org . hidup sndiri tak terurus nak kesah psl hidup org buat ape ? " BODOW SIA . you talking about other people's life here , your just potraying a bad impression of yurself man . no wonder people dun like to be around u . hey , i know what type of person u are & i just think that u DUNT HAVE THE CUT TO BE A HUMAN BEING COS U DUNT HAVE A HEART ! if u do , u wldnt talk bad abt ppl . if we can take care about other ppl's feelings , how about u ? In the first place , what did the couple ever do wrong to u ? Dorng tk kacau kau pon . sorrey ehk , maybe u have certain friends that are around u tht care . but have u ever think and afraid that the only friends u have will sooner or later know how cruel u are and how its shown by yur TRUE COLOURS . u ask around whether ppl like u . NA-UHH ! NO WAY ! and why must u call ppl ugly ? who do u think u are ? Allah created us and he create us such that everythg is beautiful and has a meaning in life ! u dun realise tht cos yur not one and u dun have a heart to care . AND YUR NOT EVEN AT A PEEK OF ADORABLE ! YOUR A KPOOO UGLY FAGGOT ! Go enjoy the PATHETIC LIFE OF YOURS WHILE U STILL CAN . if u ever dare and have the guts to talk or hint any single one or me , ill hunt u down like a cockcroach ! no wonder your boyfriend leaves you ! Pathetic . Your lucky you have nice friends ! oh and not to forget , didnt i mention that SW is also a boyfriend stealer ? goshh ! many heard so many stories about you , GIRL !

ps ; yes ppl , i am angry . sorrey for the hush words . its especially dedicated for SW . if u can write about other ppl's life , so can i now . and this is for you , hunney ! be thankful that u still HAVE friends . kalo tk da jd gembel ! PERANGAI NONSENSE ! MAKE MORE FRIENDS WITH PEOPLE . NOT MAKE THEM YOUR ENEMY ! u make me do this .

new

2009-06-05T05:57:00.001-07:00

hello . eyy ! like at LAAASSSSSTT sei my blog is done . i spent from 7 till 12 , u know ! sheeesshh , what an effort ! haha . well . im so tired . tmr je luh i blog . plus plus , so many thg have been happening . mcm best gtu kan anak pompan kamal ni . haha . well , last thing i wanna say is ;

I hate dealing with
Hate Taggers
but i had to if there is . So listen you shitting slutting
WHORES OR BASTARDS
who even have the guts to try me , go ahead , i DARE you to write your shitting name down , cowards . And i promise ,
PROMISE
that you hate taggers will get the worse of your life ! This is my life . my privacy . Who are you to be a
fcuking KPO IMMATURE?
So you Dirty HATE TAGGERS , Please dun TOUCH my Blog .

eyy ? mcm copy paste jer from "Profile" section ? haha .
anw , Aizat , Izhar & Dina were the first three to visit my blog . smpai aizat terkejut ehk ? hehe
well , thats all dudes and dudettes . mwah ! night night . ((;